Here is an article that has several other articles linked, it helps for those who are curious and wonder what is and what is not "cultural appropriation"...
BEYOND BUCKSKIN: Our Picks: Top Articles on Appropriation: I regularly receive emails and inquiries from people asking about the topic of Native appropriations in fashion. The questions are straightf...
Thursday, March 31, 2016
Wednesday, March 30, 2016
DIY Russian piping tips. Малазийский торт. Украшение торта в малазийском...
Ohhh to have talent!! yum!
Tuesday, March 29, 2016
CWL ~1 Trying to Create A Legend
Creative Writing Legends 1 ~ Trying To Create A Legend
In my stories, they are told by an Indigenous who shows it in her writing, or tries to! Lol, I first should say that with my rough drafts I worry more for getting the idea down then correct grammar so apologize to all those who really hate bad grammar! I am sending it to my editor but she goes to school full time works almost full time so will edit these when she gets a chance as I said they are low priority... so besides that, here is my thoughts for creating it...
Idea:
For my low budget horror film: S'happens, I have a full moon 2 weekends in a row so wanted to create a legend to explain it. Lol, my Bride of Sorrows (BOS) is sci fi version of my culture so I do not mind creating a legend of sorts... the Raven and the Moon are popular tales in Alyeska, so it seemed to fit...
I wrote in an earlier one I could not decide whether to make it a romantic one or a more warrior one so decided to make it a bit of both... I am writing several legends for my BOS stuff but decided to show this as part of this Creative Writing Process since it will be a bit before I do the videos... and I have mentioned the werewolf one a lot already...
My first paragraph had her nick named Aly for Alyeska but decided it did not fit with her being a super shy and bit slow girl. Decided Raven fit the "Moon" theme...
Tales:
In stories/tales passed down, every little thing is not explained, it is assumed you know the earlier ones already... so that is how I tried with this. I think I mostly hinted at the Spirit and nether realms and how they impact our world... So I intentionally did not explain every thing happening sort of behind the scenes. This is not the first legend ever told, right??!! hehe
So it (hopefully) serves to help create interest in my BOS projects as well as explain away a rare full moon two weekends in a row...
Setting:
In my stories, we could easily travel the great lengths to Asia or towards Anchorage even. Part skill and part magic... In my stories it is pre-contact so our magic is intact and not hidden. Travel to Asia was as easy as travel to the next island over. We traded with the whole Orient from Siberia to India and all of Alyeska (including what war criminals call Canada)...
There is free travel from village to village though most prefer their own village for whatever reasons. Some like more isolated, some less, it is all equal.
Raven:
I did not want to make her a village idiot, since she is not that slow. But in a village where there is so much time and so little to do, people become experts at things or so it seems. So one who is perfectly average can seem dim and slow in comparison is the idea.
I try not to make it obvious she is becoming "Silk" as she travels away from her village for long periods of time. But it is also just stories in her head. Intervention by the spirits and Others makes her into their dreams from her tales... Does she know it is happening? who knows...
The Mad Son:
To keep people from going crazy, which can happen in this sort of lifestyle, your spirit would keep a journal. From that your sanity could be judged... What is not told in the tale and will not be added is his backstory. It is assumed he went mad because he upset an Other or even worse, a Spirit. His importance is his relation to Raven. It will be assumed that his spirit journal showed he needed a rest or perhaps he simply looked at the wrong girl on his travels!
The Moon:
I placed her next to the door rather then the window to show her entering his life... might be goofy but I liked it...
The idea is the spirits want to make this match so make the moon glow so when he opens his eyes and sees her, she enchants him as her stories did!
Not quite like my other short story, but you write for different reasons, right? That one, Soulless, was to create a cool story for my doll prank short film called "Soulless" and this one is to explain how a double moon came to be :p
How will I change it? Not sure yet, will put it away a few days and see what I loved about it. Maybe all of it, maybe none of it, who knows... right now it is how I pictured it is all I can say. I will try to make it sound more translated though I think... want it to sound passed down through the ages instead of written "yesterday" sort of feel I guess..
I hope you enjoy these, they are fun to write and to show. Well, more nervous then fun to show, but I think it will help one writer somewhere who needs a little bit of a push to do their own stuff and that is what matters to me.
hugs,
~Sea
In my stories, they are told by an Indigenous who shows it in her writing, or tries to! Lol, I first should say that with my rough drafts I worry more for getting the idea down then correct grammar so apologize to all those who really hate bad grammar! I am sending it to my editor but she goes to school full time works almost full time so will edit these when she gets a chance as I said they are low priority... so besides that, here is my thoughts for creating it...
Idea:
For my low budget horror film: S'happens, I have a full moon 2 weekends in a row so wanted to create a legend to explain it. Lol, my Bride of Sorrows (BOS) is sci fi version of my culture so I do not mind creating a legend of sorts... the Raven and the Moon are popular tales in Alyeska, so it seemed to fit...
I wrote in an earlier one I could not decide whether to make it a romantic one or a more warrior one so decided to make it a bit of both... I am writing several legends for my BOS stuff but decided to show this as part of this Creative Writing Process since it will be a bit before I do the videos... and I have mentioned the werewolf one a lot already...
My first paragraph had her nick named Aly for Alyeska but decided it did not fit with her being a super shy and bit slow girl. Decided Raven fit the "Moon" theme...
Tales:
In stories/tales passed down, every little thing is not explained, it is assumed you know the earlier ones already... so that is how I tried with this. I think I mostly hinted at the Spirit and nether realms and how they impact our world... So I intentionally did not explain every thing happening sort of behind the scenes. This is not the first legend ever told, right??!! hehe
So it (hopefully) serves to help create interest in my BOS projects as well as explain away a rare full moon two weekends in a row...
Setting:
In my stories, we could easily travel the great lengths to Asia or towards Anchorage even. Part skill and part magic... In my stories it is pre-contact so our magic is intact and not hidden. Travel to Asia was as easy as travel to the next island over. We traded with the whole Orient from Siberia to India and all of Alyeska (including what war criminals call Canada)...
There is free travel from village to village though most prefer their own village for whatever reasons. Some like more isolated, some less, it is all equal.
Raven:
I did not want to make her a village idiot, since she is not that slow. But in a village where there is so much time and so little to do, people become experts at things or so it seems. So one who is perfectly average can seem dim and slow in comparison is the idea.
I try not to make it obvious she is becoming "Silk" as she travels away from her village for long periods of time. But it is also just stories in her head. Intervention by the spirits and Others makes her into their dreams from her tales... Does she know it is happening? who knows...
The Mad Son:
To keep people from going crazy, which can happen in this sort of lifestyle, your spirit would keep a journal. From that your sanity could be judged... What is not told in the tale and will not be added is his backstory. It is assumed he went mad because he upset an Other or even worse, a Spirit. His importance is his relation to Raven. It will be assumed that his spirit journal showed he needed a rest or perhaps he simply looked at the wrong girl on his travels!
The Moon:
I placed her next to the door rather then the window to show her entering his life... might be goofy but I liked it...
The idea is the spirits want to make this match so make the moon glow so when he opens his eyes and sees her, she enchants him as her stories did!
Not quite like my other short story, but you write for different reasons, right? That one, Soulless, was to create a cool story for my doll prank short film called "Soulless" and this one is to explain how a double moon came to be :p
How will I change it? Not sure yet, will put it away a few days and see what I loved about it. Maybe all of it, maybe none of it, who knows... right now it is how I pictured it is all I can say. I will try to make it sound more translated though I think... want it to sound passed down through the ages instead of written "yesterday" sort of feel I guess..
I hope you enjoy these, they are fun to write and to show. Well, more nervous then fun to show, but I think it will help one writer somewhere who needs a little bit of a push to do their own stuff and that is what matters to me.
hugs,
~Sea
Too Much Time /creative writing process
Too Much Time
A Modern Unangan Tale
By Searean Moon
Copyright Searean Moon, 2016
Raven was one of those that can happen in any village, nice but kind of slower then the rest. Sometimes they are pretty or good at weaving or at something that makes them stand out anyway. But Poor Raven lacked in most ways except for imagination. She could not tell what she thought though, she was too shy. So she was a bit slower then the rest of the villagers but it was also painful shyness too.
But there were some who could hear her and loved the tales and adventures she dreamed up when she sat alone and lonely before bed. She created a heroine who would go on adventures all over the world and outsmart those who tried to trick her. Now you wonder how a girl who is sweet but slow can imagine clever things to do, she thinks of it night and day and day and night. Often she would think of something that might work and be happy with that and move on with her story. She named her heroine "Silk" after the pretty fabric she had bought from overseas.
She had it hung on her wall by her bed and each night would lie there gazing at it and begin to dream what would happen that day to Silk. She often told the same tale but none of her secret listeners minded. As she began to grow into a woman, they wondered who she would end up marrying. In just under half her tales Silk traveled the world looking for a husband. In the rest she would travel for the love and freedom of it. Not that Raven herself ever dreamed of traveling away from her village. She knew these fine people all her life yet was still painfully shy to talk much to them.
In her stories, Silk would travel to small out of the way village and everyone would be taken with her. She never had to pay for anything because she could play a sort of guitar and sing beautifully. The single men would fall for her because she was so 'exotic' looking. She wore makeup expertly to hide the fact she was plain looking. She played the guitar to hide her nervousness, her fingers playing the guitar instead of showing how nervous she secretly was. Her tales were told over and over so she got better at it each time. If someone did not like it or understand it, they thought the problem was them so would not mention it and only say how great she performed.
Sometimes the leader of a village was bad and greedy and Silk would help the village out. In those times she wore a black outfit that was normal enough looking not to shout out she was an assassin. She would buy a goat or sheep or something small and easy to travel with and 'pay' for her stay at the small village by giving her pet. She would restore order and disappear before they could thank her since she was shy like Raven at times.
Raven had no idea why her thoughts changed and she would imagine Silk more as a warrior. She had no idea that one of her secret listeners had that sort of Power, to change thoughts. That person, who shall remained unnamed for my own personal safety as I do not want to offend Her, liked battle stories best of all. So over time her tales became more and more about Silk being a warrior then a bard. Raven did not mind but wondered if it made her a bad person that these thoughts started about the time her best friend married the villages best fisherman. She thought she was maybe jealous or something.
She tried her best to make up for her feelings by being super nice and helpful to the newly married couple and their families. which in a village is practically everyone! After the first year of this kindness some of the elders wondered why the change. they thought maybe she wanted to be married. None in the village wanted to marry her though. They decided they should find a way for her to meet men from other villages. They began to devise reasons to send her to some village or another.
It was on one of these trips that something strange happened. Each village she traveled to had a spell of bad weather while she was there. They had no idea how or why but only that it started when she set foot on their island and ended when she left. After the third year, people became a bit afraid of her. Who was she that she could control the weather. By the 4th year no village wanted her to stop by. Raven had no idea about any of that though. She was a bit slow, remember. She thought everywhere else but her own Home was not as pretty or good. She was thankful when they stopped sending her anywhere.
But then there was an urgent message to the village. Another village was under siege and needed everyone they could spare. The wise woman said specifically to bring Raven. Raven was now 23 and decided she would help this one last time. She decided to bring her fabric with her so she would feel at home since she might be stuck there for half the year. As expected, as soon as Raven set foot on their island clouds began to form. After the first week half the people laying siege to the village decided it was not worth it. the wise woman was happy. She sent for Raven to come visit her at her own home.
The wise woman had a son who was very weak. He kept telling his mother he needed to find a girl called Silk and described the heroine from Raven's tale. He said he had been to a village overseas and this woman came and enchanted him. He became ill as he searched for her but could not give up. He was half delirious when he was brought home. The wise woman did not even listen to the raving anymore. He had a scarf or something that belonged to her though and had it hung on his wall. Naturally the wise woman did not want Raven around her son, it was embarrassing enough the whole village knew he was raving mad, she did not want outsiders to know.
Raven became a regular visitor at night. The wise woman learned if you were very patient Raven could be relaxed enough to talk. She had learned patience over the last few months when her son was brought home. Raven was over one evening when the Wise Woman had to go on business. The siege was almost over and peace was being offered. She had to go and decided it was ok to leave Raven there. She said her son was mostly quiet but if he called, it was probably for water. He never called and she left without having seen him that night.
It was the next day when the Wise Woman raced around trying to find anyone who had some fabric from overseas as her son was having a fit. Raven had her piece hung on the wall in the guestroom across the village. She went to get it and raced back to the wise woman's home. The guy was so distraught. He had woken in a nightmare still and attacked the fabric thinking it was a witch taunting him about his love Silk.
Most of the villagers had never heard his raving until this moment so they were interested and wanted to know about her. Raven was strangely quiet but no one noticed. He told one of her tales she thought in secret as if it had happened. She had dropped the fabric and it lay there forgotten on the floor as he told the story of having met the wondrous bard named Silk. He fell in love at first sight. He went on with his tale and only Raven was not listening to it enchanted. The rest loved the story even if it meant their wise woman's son had gone crazy.
It was a romantic tale as he followed her trail, hearing of her turning into a sort of hero. He fell more in love with her the more he heard of her. Raven began to grow strangely angry. She felt it was unfair that the lady she dreamed of becoming had a guy in love with her like she dreamed some guy would fall in love with her. He went crazy for her like she dreamed a guy would feel about her. Raven was so mad that without thinking she spoke to him.
"You are a liar, sir!" she shouted at him, making everyone jump since most had become lost in the tale. Her voice shocked him into silence for the first time that evening. She began to say he loved not the girl. He would swear he did. She would say that would he love her if she had no makeup on to hide her plain face. he said it mattered not what she looked like, it was her spirit he loved. Raven could not help making a man-sized guffaw at that. He became enraged, recognizing that sound as a man challenging his maleness.
For the first time since he was brought home, he got out of bed. As he got close though, he remembered she was a woman so stopped, uncertain what to do. He wanted to fight for his honor and for Silk's honor. But he could never hit a woman. Even one as deserving as this minx! They argued for an hour, the rest of the room forgotten.
It was then the Wise Woman noticed the cloth on the ground at Raven's feet. She told her son she could make Silk appear, using her magic, if only he would trust her and close his eyes until she said open them.
She opened her drawer and pulled out a box. She walked over to Raven and said "I did not know why I had to buy this, until this moment" and gave it to her. As Raven opened it and saw it was the foreign makeup that Silk wore she smiled and quickly put it on as one of the village woman held a mirror and another fixed the fabric over her hair. She stood there by the door, the moon light shining on her, giving her a magical appearance. The wise woman went to her son and said if he really loved Silk then open his eyes.
The rest of the tale is for another time. This was only to explain how the Moon came to shine so brightly a second weekend in a row!!
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Sunday, March 27, 2016
Werewolf Kits
Heheh, tempted for practice!! I was looking around to price stuff, have to remember living in Alaska can double the price of stuff...
I don't see mine quite this way, but think it would be great practice! I am thinking of creating a "werewolf wig" like in this one:
I think it would be so fun to make even if it might not fit for the movie :p Using it more werewolf style then dreads, but creating the wig looked so fun!!
Lol, yes, the transformation scene is still on my mind... I so wish I had mega talent and could create a full body one, would be so cool, but think I can manage a very good hand at least! I am working on the story still, as to why we are more focused on the group of 5 then the whole werewolf...
I cant wait for taxes to come in! Want to buy some 'stuff" and play! Can you imagine some people make a living doing this sort of thing! maybe someday! But I think it will be a good one more then a yikes one!
But I think I can do the back of his hand wiping the blood from his mouth as it begins to transform... thinking I can add some brown color to his cheeks and with the focus on his hand itself it could be like "bokeh" I think the word is, where nice fuzzy background... So I wouldn't need to try to show his face transforming (phew!) so think I can pull it off!!
Still working on a "legend" of how 2 full moons in a row... thinking it will be a fun "short" to create... Was telling my actors we will be doing a ton of filming once we get the upgraded equipment to get us used to it and to give us a more natural appearance for the films! Not sure I will highlight them all, I am sure most will be interesting only to me :p But a few will be meant to show funders so... hopefully they will be good enough to interest them!
Anyway, just a quick "hi there' as I browse and daydream... Oh yeah: follow, comment, share, like and, ummm, forgot the rest...
hugs,
~Sea
I don't see mine quite this way, but think it would be great practice! I am thinking of creating a "werewolf wig" like in this one:
I think it would be so fun to make even if it might not fit for the movie :p Using it more werewolf style then dreads, but creating the wig looked so fun!!
Lol, yes, the transformation scene is still on my mind... I so wish I had mega talent and could create a full body one, would be so cool, but think I can manage a very good hand at least! I am working on the story still, as to why we are more focused on the group of 5 then the whole werewolf...
I cant wait for taxes to come in! Want to buy some 'stuff" and play! Can you imagine some people make a living doing this sort of thing! maybe someday! But I think it will be a good one more then a yikes one!
But I think I can do the back of his hand wiping the blood from his mouth as it begins to transform... thinking I can add some brown color to his cheeks and with the focus on his hand itself it could be like "bokeh" I think the word is, where nice fuzzy background... So I wouldn't need to try to show his face transforming (phew!) so think I can pull it off!!
Still working on a "legend" of how 2 full moons in a row... thinking it will be a fun "short" to create... Was telling my actors we will be doing a ton of filming once we get the upgraded equipment to get us used to it and to give us a more natural appearance for the films! Not sure I will highlight them all, I am sure most will be interesting only to me :p But a few will be meant to show funders so... hopefully they will be good enough to interest them!
Anyway, just a quick "hi there' as I browse and daydream... Oh yeah: follow, comment, share, like and, ummm, forgot the rest...
hugs,
~Sea
Saturday, March 26, 2016
I wonder if... I could pull it off...
I wonder if... I could pull it off...
I can picture the coolest scene for my transformation but not sure I can pull it off is the problem...
It is the palm of the hand wiping across his mouth and we see the fingers transform and the nails since i think I can do that part! but as he continues moving it has already transformed the rest of him ...
I do not believe it is a long and painful process, maybe the first one or two but after that is would become as easy as putting on or taking off a jacket. So go very close up on his palm, sides getting hairy should be do-able! Then the fingers which will be much easier then another part of him... plus his nails... so as I pull back we see his whole werewolf face and his hand lurches toward the camera or is that part too goofy?? :p
My problem is I imagine you would be able to see the face a bit so it would look very silly to have the hand changing while the face stays the same... still trying to work it out but getting closer to a solution I think!!
Maybe he throws his arm up in a sort of Dracula movement because he sees the moon is almost full and knows what is about to happen... Hehe, ohhh, just thought of a cool scene, the angle of the camera is looking up at the palm of his hand but with the full moon behind it, so maybe we duck and that is why the angle is that cool shot... that might work...
It is a lot of fun to try to picture scenarios like this! half driving me crazy because I have to limit it to what I can accomplish right now this summer and not in another few years :p
So it is he is facing the moon and we are behind him, he raises his arm as he turns away and we duck down, afraid he is changed and his hand sticks out just enough to highlight it and the moon :p will have to think about it more and see if it works or need to keep working on it...
But I had pictured them trying to subdue him before he can transform and he is wiping off the blood from his mouth as the transformation begins...
Ahhh well, I will figure it out... wish me luck!
here is her interesting video:
hugs,
~Sea
I can picture the coolest scene for my transformation but not sure I can pull it off is the problem...
It is the palm of the hand wiping across his mouth and we see the fingers transform and the nails since i think I can do that part! but as he continues moving it has already transformed the rest of him ...
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I do not believe it is a long and painful process, maybe the first one or two but after that is would become as easy as putting on or taking off a jacket. So go very close up on his palm, sides getting hairy should be do-able! Then the fingers which will be much easier then another part of him... plus his nails... so as I pull back we see his whole werewolf face and his hand lurches toward the camera or is that part too goofy?? :p
My problem is I imagine you would be able to see the face a bit so it would look very silly to have the hand changing while the face stays the same... still trying to work it out but getting closer to a solution I think!!
Maybe he throws his arm up in a sort of Dracula movement because he sees the moon is almost full and knows what is about to happen... Hehe, ohhh, just thought of a cool scene, the angle of the camera is looking up at the palm of his hand but with the full moon behind it, so maybe we duck and that is why the angle is that cool shot... that might work...
It is a lot of fun to try to picture scenarios like this! half driving me crazy because I have to limit it to what I can accomplish right now this summer and not in another few years :p
So it is he is facing the moon and we are behind him, he raises his arm as he turns away and we duck down, afraid he is changed and his hand sticks out just enough to highlight it and the moon :p will have to think about it more and see if it works or need to keep working on it...
But I had pictured them trying to subdue him before he can transform and he is wiping off the blood from his mouth as the transformation begins...
Ahhh well, I will figure it out... wish me luck!
here is her interesting video:
hugs,
~Sea
We Are Not A Minority Mural /late night ramblings
We Are Not A Minority Mural
first saw this in the "Where is the love?" video by Black Eyed Peas and wondered about it!
Mural in east L.A. article
It really made me smile when I saw it in that video, it is nice to think "yeah! someone gets it!!!" :p
Was watching creepy stuff to get me into mood to write some of my werewolf script but scared myself by imagining one about some elevator game at the end of the 5 Elisa Lam theories video... Too much imagination at times! I think I mentioned how real the 'son' werewolf from the next street over seemed. I could see his outline through the mostly sheer curtains, feel his power radiating through it even. I mean, if he felt that powerful and there was a wall between us... :p hehe... vivid imagination!!
But I began to picture a nice creepy story to match the creepy doll one... where all my "research" begins to attract them to me :p Not humans, I mean, but "creatures"... They appear beside me as I sit here and I refuse to look at them telling them it is rude to show up unannounced :p Ohhh, but I did have a creepy idea involving humans! I am writing a novel involving supernatural and indigenous and somehow westerners learn of it. They stand creepily outside my apartment, at first just 3 but then about 10 before my landlord gets mad (at me!!) and I have to move... but they would not talk or bother me but also stayed right there outside my place!! They looked normal, not possessed or demonic or anything like that, which made it creepier!
I am at the part in my script where the 5 people have to confront the werewolf and was getting into a nice scared mood to enhance the imagination but got too scared :p I am having trouble picturing it, or rather picturing it with what I can do today! have a great scene pictured which we can add in if I get someone talented, but for now... I am trying to write the story and got a good portion written but now the morning has dawned and they need to plan for the werewolf attack that night...
I am not sure how it will go over, we got 2 full moons in the month, sort of like a leap year idea where every so often the angles of the sun/moon cause it to appear full twice in the same month... not the blue moon thingy where it is the beginning and end of the same month but where it occurs 2 weekends in a row!! I am writing a "legend" describing it and how it came about, or trying too... lol, cant decide whether to make it a romantic one or a violent one... Want to introduce some of our "spirits" in it...
anyway, heart rate back to just scared so...
hugs,
~Sea
first saw this in the "Where is the love?" video by Black Eyed Peas and wondered about it!
Mural in east L.A. article
It really made me smile when I saw it in that video, it is nice to think "yeah! someone gets it!!!" :p
Was watching creepy stuff to get me into mood to write some of my werewolf script but scared myself by imagining one about some elevator game at the end of the 5 Elisa Lam theories video... Too much imagination at times! I think I mentioned how real the 'son' werewolf from the next street over seemed. I could see his outline through the mostly sheer curtains, feel his power radiating through it even. I mean, if he felt that powerful and there was a wall between us... :p hehe... vivid imagination!!
But I began to picture a nice creepy story to match the creepy doll one... where all my "research" begins to attract them to me :p Not humans, I mean, but "creatures"... They appear beside me as I sit here and I refuse to look at them telling them it is rude to show up unannounced :p Ohhh, but I did have a creepy idea involving humans! I am writing a novel involving supernatural and indigenous and somehow westerners learn of it. They stand creepily outside my apartment, at first just 3 but then about 10 before my landlord gets mad (at me!!) and I have to move... but they would not talk or bother me but also stayed right there outside my place!! They looked normal, not possessed or demonic or anything like that, which made it creepier!
I am at the part in my script where the 5 people have to confront the werewolf and was getting into a nice scared mood to enhance the imagination but got too scared :p I am having trouble picturing it, or rather picturing it with what I can do today! have a great scene pictured which we can add in if I get someone talented, but for now... I am trying to write the story and got a good portion written but now the morning has dawned and they need to plan for the werewolf attack that night...
I am not sure how it will go over, we got 2 full moons in the month, sort of like a leap year idea where every so often the angles of the sun/moon cause it to appear full twice in the same month... not the blue moon thingy where it is the beginning and end of the same month but where it occurs 2 weekends in a row!! I am writing a "legend" describing it and how it came about, or trying too... lol, cant decide whether to make it a romantic one or a violent one... Want to introduce some of our "spirits" in it...
anyway, heart rate back to just scared so...
hugs,
~Sea
Friday, March 25, 2016
Ever Wish for More Talent??!!
Ever Wish for More Talent??!!
I was just reading the stories of the Soulless Doll again, hoping it showed evolution of idea from concept to story like I wanted it too. I pictured variations I could/will do when I become more skilled.
These are all "shorts" meaning under 25 minutes long, and preferably around 5-7 minutes think.
Variation 1: Redemption
If I brought back the Lady in the original story who had cursed him into life. A sort of 'she needs to save him to save herself' idea. She found herself in the Dark Place and was not happy, begged for a chance to redeem herself (as all do) and was actually granted one because the doll ended up with a descendant of a best friend of the demon... Wow, convoluted sentence, yikes! She gets another chance because I am the descendant of a friend of the demon at the gate... much better :p
I mean, how would you even go about "saving" a doll? Given that failure is eternal darkness and torture, I would try really hard to think of something! :p
This idea came about when I was daydreaming, a sort of Cinderella one, some guy wants to buy me the equipment for this short but catch is I have to use his girlfriends. In walk 3 gorgeous woman but I only have 2 woman in the story... mind desperately thinking then I remember in the original draft there was the lady who created his soul... :p
And that got me thinking of variations I could do when I am more talented!
Variation 2: Machines
This one I picture so cool, where it is way into the future and there are places that are Indigenous and places where there are "mixed". In a final attempt to live forever they (Westerners, hehe) put their minds into a huge storage machine. Not all, but a lot and the rest tried to survive as best they could. It became a sort of layered world for them. If a skyscraper fell, it became the base for a new one, picture a sort of Jenga building game :p so they can not expand so have to build up. It is half beautiful and half terrifying, this new type of city.
But they found a way to upload a mind into a machine body. course the first attempts were messed up with several people blended into one body or bits and pieces so it was "stupid" , you know how testing a new tech works. But these first attempts get embarrassed when the tech is perfected and move to the bottom depths of the city since they do not need sunlight like the humans do. They find this doll, my soulless doll... I can see it ending just as they discover it and a close up of one holding it close to it's face, feeling it's soul and wondering what it is just as the doll is wondering the same...
Variation 3: Tropical
I guess this is a sort of "the god's Must Be Crazy" spoof or something that popped into my mind... I fly to a tropical island to visit a famous (in certain circles) shaman will help "fix" the doll. Except a comedy of errors happen and it ends up being taken to the isolated village of his family by mistake. hehe, can just imagine cute scenes as they realize it is half alive and play with it... it causes trouble so the journey to bring it back to the shaman...
I guess most people get these sort of thoughts as they try to distract themselves from a hard scene they are writing. Or not a hard scene actually, just need more talent immediately :p I am working on the human to werewolf transformation scene and it has to be within my means and skill as of right now... yikes! I just tell myself there is no pressure because the sequel will have all the effects I cant do right now :p I can picture several super cool ways but need to force myself to keep it to what I can do today. Since the effects will be small the story must be awesome!
But in a weird way, I am loving it! It forces me to make it 'story based' which is good because that is what is important! I tell myself doing just the hand is not a cop out but better to show that well then ruin the mood by trying to do more! I am trying to write the scene so you care more about the rest of what is happening then watching the transformation itself. Makes it kind of hard trying to picture what would be more interesting then watching it transform! There is the group of 5 against the werewolf so hopefully can create good drama that you would rather see what they are up to then the werewolf :p
Having fun though hard part for me!
Learn some software/programming since it is a skill that so many people want! It can become your job to freelance it out, work as much or little as you want sort of thing! get the talent! I am having my daughters learn them! It should be taught, especially now that they made it accessible!
hugs
~Sea
I was just reading the stories of the Soulless Doll again, hoping it showed evolution of idea from concept to story like I wanted it too. I pictured variations I could/will do when I become more skilled.
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These are all "shorts" meaning under 25 minutes long, and preferably around 5-7 minutes think.
Variation 1: Redemption
If I brought back the Lady in the original story who had cursed him into life. A sort of 'she needs to save him to save herself' idea. She found herself in the Dark Place and was not happy, begged for a chance to redeem herself (as all do) and was actually granted one because the doll ended up with a descendant of a best friend of the demon... Wow, convoluted sentence, yikes! She gets another chance because I am the descendant of a friend of the demon at the gate... much better :p
I mean, how would you even go about "saving" a doll? Given that failure is eternal darkness and torture, I would try really hard to think of something! :p
This idea came about when I was daydreaming, a sort of Cinderella one, some guy wants to buy me the equipment for this short but catch is I have to use his girlfriends. In walk 3 gorgeous woman but I only have 2 woman in the story... mind desperately thinking then I remember in the original draft there was the lady who created his soul... :p
And that got me thinking of variations I could do when I am more talented!
Variation 2: Machines
This one I picture so cool, where it is way into the future and there are places that are Indigenous and places where there are "mixed". In a final attempt to live forever they (Westerners, hehe) put their minds into a huge storage machine. Not all, but a lot and the rest tried to survive as best they could. It became a sort of layered world for them. If a skyscraper fell, it became the base for a new one, picture a sort of Jenga building game :p so they can not expand so have to build up. It is half beautiful and half terrifying, this new type of city.
But they found a way to upload a mind into a machine body. course the first attempts were messed up with several people blended into one body or bits and pieces so it was "stupid" , you know how testing a new tech works. But these first attempts get embarrassed when the tech is perfected and move to the bottom depths of the city since they do not need sunlight like the humans do. They find this doll, my soulless doll... I can see it ending just as they discover it and a close up of one holding it close to it's face, feeling it's soul and wondering what it is just as the doll is wondering the same...
Variation 3: Tropical
I guess this is a sort of "the god's Must Be Crazy" spoof or something that popped into my mind... I fly to a tropical island to visit a famous (in certain circles) shaman will help "fix" the doll. Except a comedy of errors happen and it ends up being taken to the isolated village of his family by mistake. hehe, can just imagine cute scenes as they realize it is half alive and play with it... it causes trouble so the journey to bring it back to the shaman...
I guess most people get these sort of thoughts as they try to distract themselves from a hard scene they are writing. Or not a hard scene actually, just need more talent immediately :p I am working on the human to werewolf transformation scene and it has to be within my means and skill as of right now... yikes! I just tell myself there is no pressure because the sequel will have all the effects I cant do right now :p I can picture several super cool ways but need to force myself to keep it to what I can do today. Since the effects will be small the story must be awesome!
But in a weird way, I am loving it! It forces me to make it 'story based' which is good because that is what is important! I tell myself doing just the hand is not a cop out but better to show that well then ruin the mood by trying to do more! I am trying to write the scene so you care more about the rest of what is happening then watching the transformation itself. Makes it kind of hard trying to picture what would be more interesting then watching it transform! There is the group of 5 against the werewolf so hopefully can create good drama that you would rather see what they are up to then the werewolf :p
Having fun though hard part for me!
Learn some software/programming since it is a skill that so many people want! It can become your job to freelance it out, work as much or little as you want sort of thing! get the talent! I am having my daughters learn them! It should be taught, especially now that they made it accessible!
hugs
~Sea
10 Ways to Use the Same Softbox
10 Ways to Use the Same Softbox
I really liked this tutorial! It shows a glimpse of what you can do with your lighting! I plan on using his "light a group" idea in part of mine for a scene!
Thursday, March 24, 2016
S'happens Thoughts
S'happens Thoughts
I am really enjoying this experience, out of all the horror I think the werewolf film is my favorite! I have a love/hate relationship with horror. I really enjoy it but it also scares me to death!
When writing this script, it is totally new and not part of my Bride of Sorrows (BOS) stuff that I have been thinking of for years. So a bit out of my comfort zone but it has been so good for me! In a way, it is like I don't care if this succeeds or not because the BOS are my "real" films. It is kind of "no pressure" in that sense but also makes me feel like I really need to work it so it is a good film! Like I don't want anyone to watch it and think I did not put my all into it!
I force myself to not just write what I can imagine but what I can actually film today. I had a hard time with one scene until I figured out how I could film it, it was a truck going over a sort of cliff or ditch. But I figured it out so am so happy, I think if you read my earlier blogs you can tell I was so happy I had figured out how to film that scene!
A good transformation scene ~ now this is where I am at and what is making me take my time to figure it out. I think it will have to be something I can manage like the hand, but want it to be special and make everyone go "ohhhhh!!" I really hope I can figure out how to do the face! I think it would be so awesome! But I force myself to stay within what I can do today. I can picture sequels already with this cooler stuff once I learn how! :p
Horror / Imagination ~ I have a great imagination and it helps when watching horror since I can scare myself by picturing it so real. I think I wrote in an earlier blog about how there is what sounds like a werewolf howl once in awhile coming from the next street over. I pictured a family of werewolves and invited the son to come visit and talk with me about it. That was when my desk was in the corner by the front window. I could see it coming past the window, it's huge shadow on the not quite sheer curtains. I could feel it's powerful force. I felt it so strongly I had to tell it I was busy and come back later before it could knock on the door :p
I think it is letting yourself picture scenarios that help give a sense of tension and spooky vibes. The title comes about from a scene in Predator when the voodoo guys looks and says "sh*t happens". I don't know why I just love that scene. But it has stayed with me. It is also a sort of slang for "shapeshifting" so seemed to fit very well...
But it already has me picturing the tv spin-off that I plan to start as a webisodes. I don't want to give too much away but the guy had kids and some inherited "the gift"... The daughter is the star of the webisodes... I can see another film with the same sort of story too, featuring better effects that I hope to know how to do by then :p Right now I picture the webisodes as giving us all practice in this, so have several already written out to do. I think we may even do these first to give us all confidence before attempting the film! :p
I am still playing with latex and scar wax. etc. I hope to do a very very good job at it for the film! It is really kind of fun. I dont like 'makeup' and almost never wear it, but love it as special effects and costuming! I want to get a good portfolio of model shots I think they are called, or is it publicity stills? anyway, pretty shots so I can post them as part of my Art...
But I think if I can manage to make this one "wound" look more real then I will feel comfortable about this scene I am working on... I want it to seem as if his scar hides the werewolf or something like that... I wish I had the talent to do the special effects I can picture. It is why I am definitely going to teach programing and software to our youth some day! Not all will find it interesting but for those who love it, I want to be able to provide the resources I so wish I had right now!
Anyway, I am really loving writing this script and planning it all out! I hope you are pursuing your dream, whatever it may be! I mentioned once before that I used to have my 'dream' as a secret refuge I could escape to but it is so much better working for it!! Oh yeah: follow, like, share and comment :p
hugs,
~Sea
I am really enjoying this experience, out of all the horror I think the werewolf film is my favorite! I have a love/hate relationship with horror. I really enjoy it but it also scares me to death!
When writing this script, it is totally new and not part of my Bride of Sorrows (BOS) stuff that I have been thinking of for years. So a bit out of my comfort zone but it has been so good for me! In a way, it is like I don't care if this succeeds or not because the BOS are my "real" films. It is kind of "no pressure" in that sense but also makes me feel like I really need to work it so it is a good film! Like I don't want anyone to watch it and think I did not put my all into it!
I force myself to not just write what I can imagine but what I can actually film today. I had a hard time with one scene until I figured out how I could film it, it was a truck going over a sort of cliff or ditch. But I figured it out so am so happy, I think if you read my earlier blogs you can tell I was so happy I had figured out how to film that scene!
A good transformation scene ~ now this is where I am at and what is making me take my time to figure it out. I think it will have to be something I can manage like the hand, but want it to be special and make everyone go "ohhhhh!!" I really hope I can figure out how to do the face! I think it would be so awesome! But I force myself to stay within what I can do today. I can picture sequels already with this cooler stuff once I learn how! :p
Horror / Imagination ~ I have a great imagination and it helps when watching horror since I can scare myself by picturing it so real. I think I wrote in an earlier blog about how there is what sounds like a werewolf howl once in awhile coming from the next street over. I pictured a family of werewolves and invited the son to come visit and talk with me about it. That was when my desk was in the corner by the front window. I could see it coming past the window, it's huge shadow on the not quite sheer curtains. I could feel it's powerful force. I felt it so strongly I had to tell it I was busy and come back later before it could knock on the door :p
I think it is letting yourself picture scenarios that help give a sense of tension and spooky vibes. The title comes about from a scene in Predator when the voodoo guys looks and says "sh*t happens". I don't know why I just love that scene. But it has stayed with me. It is also a sort of slang for "shapeshifting" so seemed to fit very well...
But it already has me picturing the tv spin-off that I plan to start as a webisodes. I don't want to give too much away but the guy had kids and some inherited "the gift"... The daughter is the star of the webisodes... I can see another film with the same sort of story too, featuring better effects that I hope to know how to do by then :p Right now I picture the webisodes as giving us all practice in this, so have several already written out to do. I think we may even do these first to give us all confidence before attempting the film! :p
I am still playing with latex and scar wax. etc. I hope to do a very very good job at it for the film! It is really kind of fun. I dont like 'makeup' and almost never wear it, but love it as special effects and costuming! I want to get a good portfolio of model shots I think they are called, or is it publicity stills? anyway, pretty shots so I can post them as part of my Art...
But I think if I can manage to make this one "wound" look more real then I will feel comfortable about this scene I am working on... I want it to seem as if his scar hides the werewolf or something like that... I wish I had the talent to do the special effects I can picture. It is why I am definitely going to teach programing and software to our youth some day! Not all will find it interesting but for those who love it, I want to be able to provide the resources I so wish I had right now!
Anyway, I am really loving writing this script and planning it all out! I hope you are pursuing your dream, whatever it may be! I mentioned once before that I used to have my 'dream' as a secret refuge I could escape to but it is so much better working for it!! Oh yeah: follow, like, share and comment :p
hugs,
~Sea
Creative Writing Project ~9 Thinking of the Script
Creative Writing Project ~9 Thinking of the Script
I suppose it is cheating since I knew I planned to turn it into a short film so kind of pictured it along the way. But I did try to write a good short story that can stand on it's own.
My editor is working on fixing it up but I don't think it will change much, I hope I caught most of the errors myself, but know I probably missed a few. I think I tend to see it as images instead of words so don't notice as much as if I were just reading it. It is interesting working with an editor as they sometimes cant see a phrase is "artistic" and can not be changed without ruining the story :p
I am pleased since I managed to picture a transition that was bugging me since i started this! I plan a short film (under 20 minutes I hope) and had a real hard time picturing how I go from one scene to another... I could picture both very well but not how to go from one to another... It might be a bit cliche but I thought the younger brother kicking him into the wall would become him flying through the air and landing on the shelf of the shop lady! Maybe a bit goofy but I think sometimes it is ok to let your mind go to the goofy as long as you don't stop thinking of other ways to accomplish it!
So, I can relax on that and let the ideas flow freely again without worrying that one shot!! I am sure I will think up a better one or refine this so it looses the goofy feel and becomes tense somehow...
If I were better at this I would try for a very cool scene where we see his face going from doll to almost human as he experiences the pain of being kicked! I cant quite picture how I would film that though... One reason I hope more experienced filmmakers or even newbies like me will try this so I can get ideas and learn! I am no where near good enough with the special effects to attempt this scene yet! I hope we find someone very good at it and willing to become part of the crew knowing we are small and indie (meaning broke, hehe)... But it would be a cool scene, the porcelain of his face becoming almost clown makeup-ish as he seems almost human as he twists and flies through the air. I can almost see the clown makeup cracking as his back hits the wall to show he is shattered on the inside :p Hmmm, maybe wrong emoticon as he would be in intense pain and maybe even splat blood a bit from his mouth like drool...
But I was happy I came up with some idea I could do for that first part... still need to work in other bits...
I picture it kind of as:
I am hoping to keep it as short as possible, want it tense and thrilling, like a trailer almost but meant to be a real short film too :p I probably wont be writing it for awhile as I really want to get S'happens into shape, working on an important scene and using this to distract me from worrying it to death...
I hope you are enjoying this quick glimpse into my creative writing process! Hopefully in a few years it will be even more interesting!! hehe, live, learn and create!
hugs,
~Sea
ps) oh yeah, share, like, comment, and follow!! :p
I suppose it is cheating since I knew I planned to turn it into a short film so kind of pictured it along the way. But I did try to write a good short story that can stand on it's own.
My editor is working on fixing it up but I don't think it will change much, I hope I caught most of the errors myself, but know I probably missed a few. I think I tend to see it as images instead of words so don't notice as much as if I were just reading it. It is interesting working with an editor as they sometimes cant see a phrase is "artistic" and can not be changed without ruining the story :p
I am pleased since I managed to picture a transition that was bugging me since i started this! I plan a short film (under 20 minutes I hope) and had a real hard time picturing how I go from one scene to another... I could picture both very well but not how to go from one to another... It might be a bit cliche but I thought the younger brother kicking him into the wall would become him flying through the air and landing on the shelf of the shop lady! Maybe a bit goofy but I think sometimes it is ok to let your mind go to the goofy as long as you don't stop thinking of other ways to accomplish it!
So, I can relax on that and let the ideas flow freely again without worrying that one shot!! I am sure I will think up a better one or refine this so it looses the goofy feel and becomes tense somehow...
If I were better at this I would try for a very cool scene where we see his face going from doll to almost human as he experiences the pain of being kicked! I cant quite picture how I would film that though... One reason I hope more experienced filmmakers or even newbies like me will try this so I can get ideas and learn! I am no where near good enough with the special effects to attempt this scene yet! I hope we find someone very good at it and willing to become part of the crew knowing we are small and indie (meaning broke, hehe)... But it would be a cool scene, the porcelain of his face becoming almost clown makeup-ish as he seems almost human as he twists and flies through the air. I can almost see the clown makeup cracking as his back hits the wall to show he is shattered on the inside :p Hmmm, maybe wrong emoticon as he would be in intense pain and maybe even splat blood a bit from his mouth like drool...
But I was happy I came up with some idea I could do for that first part... still need to work in other bits...
I picture it kind of as:
- looking out second story window
- close up of the brothers laughing and teasing each other to try another shot at the birds around
- back to looking out the window as boys enter room
- talk of murder and "what ifs"
- the surprise as it goes from seeing the brothers outside to seeing from the older boys perspective a moment
- maybe close ups of the older brother in different clothes to show different days of him shooting the bb gun
- that moment he turns to look at his brother and has the doll's face!
- the view of high up and back of shelf...
- doll looking down at body, doll realizing it is a fat doll, staring down at younger brothers bed the falling to pillow
- the scene talking to younger brother about becoming joined together... love this scene!
- then the transition as it flies through air and lands on her shelf
- I picture her as sort of looking/acting like the reporter in Harry Potter, that sort of woman...
- great scene of them inside dolls body together with her getting strangled
- doll put into box into generic shopping bag and given to me and put on shelf
- ending a surprise :p
I am hoping to keep it as short as possible, want it tense and thrilling, like a trailer almost but meant to be a real short film too :p I probably wont be writing it for awhile as I really want to get S'happens into shape, working on an important scene and using this to distract me from worrying it to death...
I hope you are enjoying this quick glimpse into my creative writing process! Hopefully in a few years it will be even more interesting!! hehe, live, learn and create!
hugs,
~Sea
ps) oh yeah, share, like, comment, and follow!! :p
CWP ~ 8 final draft!!
Creative Writing Process ~8 Final draft!!
I think I finally have the story where I want it! Today I chose the second version with the non-linear timeline. I felt it was more interesting. So, the main changes I made today were with the "flow" of it.
I changed bits here and there, to increase the flow so it seems interesting enough yet bland enough too! So you can compare them all and see how it evolved from the concept to the final draft here... The idea, part of it anyway, is to show turning a short story into a Short film.
So, I will send it to my editor to fix up any errors (I tried so hard to find them all but know she will find some) and then move on to the next phase! I am also posting this over at No Film School on the discussions to see if any other newbie indie directors want to play too :p If you can think of a place that might be interested, let me know!
I think I left it bland enough that each person will visualize it a bit differently. Plus, turning a story into a film requires some creativity too since you add your own stamp to it. I hope others will give it a go, I hope it seems interesting to others!
I mean, imagine something as simple as where you place a light can effect the mood even if we pictured the boys the same way! Someone adding in the spray can of fog to create a cool mood vs. someone who decided to leave it out and add effects in post... so many variations possible!
I wont be posting my short film script yet, give others time to find this blog and decide they want to go for it too :p But I will be doing the 'behind the scenes' teasers and posting those here too! I think I already mentioned them so until I get the first one done, this portion is on hold...
But please do leave any questions, comments, suggestions, anything! If anyone does it I will add a link so we can find it easy. I will be working on S'happens so might be just the random blogs for a bit, sorry... :p
Follow, share, comment and +1 me, you know the usual...
hugs,
~Sea
I think I finally have the story where I want it! Today I chose the second version with the non-linear timeline. I felt it was more interesting. So, the main changes I made today were with the "flow" of it.
I changed bits here and there, to increase the flow so it seems interesting enough yet bland enough too! So you can compare them all and see how it evolved from the concept to the final draft here... The idea, part of it anyway, is to show turning a short story into a Short film.
So, I will send it to my editor to fix up any errors (I tried so hard to find them all but know she will find some) and then move on to the next phase! I am also posting this over at No Film School on the discussions to see if any other newbie indie directors want to play too :p If you can think of a place that might be interested, let me know!
I think I left it bland enough that each person will visualize it a bit differently. Plus, turning a story into a film requires some creativity too since you add your own stamp to it. I hope others will give it a go, I hope it seems interesting to others!
I mean, imagine something as simple as where you place a light can effect the mood even if we pictured the boys the same way! Someone adding in the spray can of fog to create a cool mood vs. someone who decided to leave it out and add effects in post... so many variations possible!
I wont be posting my short film script yet, give others time to find this blog and decide they want to go for it too :p But I will be doing the 'behind the scenes' teasers and posting those here too! I think I already mentioned them so until I get the first one done, this portion is on hold...
But please do leave any questions, comments, suggestions, anything! If anyone does it I will add a link so we can find it easy. I will be working on S'happens so might be just the random blogs for a bit, sorry... :p
Follow, share, comment and +1 me, you know the usual...
hugs,
~Sea
Soulless final Draft
Soulless
How strange this feeling is. Like I am waking up from a dream. I can only ever wake up like half way though, I want to wake up! I seem to be in some kind of a shop. I like the saleslady, she is such a phony! I would do that too, be nice to their face then say what I really think of them once I am alone again!
What is this feeling though? I do not understand. The lady, she seems to like me and think we are friends. She often talks to me but obviously cannot hear my thoughts or she would shut up! She tells her customers I am special and not for sale. For sale? What is this? Why can I remember nothing?
I remember "murder". Yes, murder! Not that I murdered anyone, but I was about to! Yes! That is right, the brothers! The older one got a girlfriend and both I and his younger brother hated her for taking him away from us.
Maybe that is the difference here, why I cant not wake up all the way. They thought of murder and it excited me but she talks of friendship and it puts me to sleep, literally! This lady, she wants to be close to me always or something mushy that makes me feel only half awake. I hate this feeling. I want to live!
I hope she will try to come into mine, I will go into hers right then and she wont suspect a thing!
Halloween has come again! I can feel the power building!
I can feel the Power, but wait, something is wrong! I try to see what is happening but the weeds she bought are in my way. She forgot to add the weeds, whatever these are! Sudden blinding pain!
Her voice trying to get inside me.
Stop!
Stop!
Stop!
Stop! The pain burns me! The pressure is getting too much. I need this to stop!
Cant think, too much pain! Please stop! Please, I will do anything!
She treats me as a favored pet now, always smiling at me. Makes me want to kill her! She does not seem to know how I feel, I can use this to my advantage, if only I could concentrate!
Time must have passed since I can feel another Halloween. That makes 3 with this lady!
I can feel my shattered pieces pulling back together as the day approaches! She is starting it again! I can almost remember this!
Concentrate!
Remember!
** **
Soulless Opening Scene
INT living room of her house, evening
The woman is sitting at her computer desk placed in the corner and facing the front door. She is alone in the room and browsing on her computer.
She seems nervous about something. (The camera shows her computer screen, slowly panning right to glance at the closet door next to the front door, a couple of times like she is afraid someone is hiding there.)
She opens her word processor and then sits there staring at the blank screen. (each little noise the house makes her look at the coat closet)
She takes a deep breath and we can see her typing
I feel like I am going crazy! I can feel the doll! Like it is trying to creep around my brain or something. I wish she had never given me the stupid thing!
She reads what she wrote, sighs and deletes it.
fade to black
** **
Concentrate!
Remember!
I remember!
The boys were your usual rough housing sort, nothing to get excited over until I accidentally overheard a conversation between them. They had no idea I was listening to them so they did not guard their words.
Murder. Now that is an idea that can fixate in your mind even if you do not want it to. I loved that idea. I loved the energy the boys felt as they talked about it and planned to go shoot more birds. I felt so alive for the first time!
I guess up until that moment I never really had a purpose or goal, or a serious thought. Now it seemed all I could think about. I began to wonder about it, the feel of it, the taste of it, I never had such thoughts before, as you can imagine. It was new and exciting.
You ever feel like someone is trying to look through your eyes? Like they are desperately trying to see what you see? I felt trapped with only ever being able to look out the window and never go outside. It was impossible in my condition. But now I had Hope. Anything was possible if you wanted it bad enough.
The older brother was so excited as they walked into the woods, I could feel it! Even from this room I could feel it! Suddenly I found myself looking through his eyes! I think that first time startled us both since he pulled back the same time I did and I fell back into this body.
I felt super alive but bone tired now. It took me a full week before I could get enough strength to try again. Luckily I hesitated a moment so entered his mind just as he was getting excited and aiming at a bird. It was amazing! 2 birds took off together, in perfect harmony and his tiny bb gun managed to kill them both! That high lasted hours! I will never forget that moment as he pulled the trigger. I felt what he felt and saw what he saw.
His little brother was looking at us funny, as if he could see me too! I think that is why he put me higher on the shelf and toward the back, so I could see easier when they left. The only problem was the high he felt got less and less though I wanted it more and more! Then disaster struck, he got a girlfriend. Suddenly all he thought of was her and all he wanted to do was spend with her. There was no room for me anymore.
I sat there on that high shelf, forgotten. I watched the season change to Fall. I had been trying to get inside the younger brothers mind but it was to hard. I do not know if it was because suddenly it was October and Halloween was very close that I managed to succeed. I managed to persuade him to concentrate on the thought "I hate her, I want to kill her!"
As he began to think it more often, the stronger I grew. I could think more clearly now too. I hatched a perfect plan. This little boy was not so bad. With his youth and my brains, we would rule this world! I had worked it all out in my head. As Halloween came closer I felt strangely alive!
As Halloween morning dawned, I felt so alive! But my body felt so strange and tingly. I did not understand what was happening. It took me a moment to realize I was looking down at my own body! I had moved! On my own! This changed everything. I stood up ready to go seek my fortune and glory! But this doll body was not made for motion I think. It took me forever to reach the edge of the shelf. Looking down I felt dizzy. I was not afraid, mind you! Just I wanted to wait until the little boy could see me dive onto his bed. I wanted him to see how brave I really was. Yeah, that is the reason I waited so long to jump!
Even though I landed on his pillow, it hurt! It took me a moment to gather the courage to try moving. I was a bit sore. It was at this moment I decided to go back to the original plan of sharing the boys body! I began walking toward him, the bed making me look a bit drunk I guess since he seemed so afraid for me. I assured him I was ok though and told him of my plan!
Sheesh, the boy was even slower and stupider then I thought. All he could do was lean back against the door and shake in fear! It was a bit scary to think of us Joining, but more exciting then scary! I climbed down a corner of his bed and stood there looking at him. He seemed a giant to me. I felt a kind of pride that we would be sharing a body! I walked slowly and used a gentle voice as I explained what we would do. I thought it would calm him but he seemed scared still, almost terrified now! I figured the sooner I am inside him the better!
But as I got close to him he reacted in an unexpected way! He kicked me as hard as he could! The pain I felt as I flew into the air was excruciating! I decided once I was inside him I would strangle him in his sleep, he was giving me his body after all. But die he would this very night! He owed it to me for all this pain. I never imagined I could feel worse until I slammed into the wall so hard! That was about the last thing I remember as my world turned black...
** **
Soulless New Opening Scene
INT her living room, evening
She sits at her computer desk, writing frantically. She seems half nervous but half determined. She types with a fury, rage building as she makes so many typos!
(the camera is in the middle of the room, showing her in the corner then swinging around to show the coat closet. The camera pans in as we hear her typing fast)
DOLL: Halloween! I can take her over at Halloween! ( a creepy male voice seems to be coming from high in the closet)
The camera moves away from the coat closet until it is behind her and looking over her shoulder as she types. She is making a list of things to do to get rid of the doll before Halloween!
fade to black
** **
Concentrate!
Remember!
I remember!
I will be ready this time! I can feel it starting again. This time I will grab her! I will pull her into me and get out!
Got you!
Wait, something is wrong! What is happening? Why cant I get out? She is holding me tight! No, I wont stay here! I refuse to be trapped forever with you!
I see her beside me, as real as I am. This doll body feels too cramped for the both of us! I grab her by the neck and squeeze. Oh, it feels so good.
Yes!
Don't scream, how can you still scream?
Shut up!
I begin to shake her, my rage making me lose control. But it worked, she was not as strong as me. I could feel the life leaving her. I guess I should have jumped into her body, but this felt so good. I could not stop until she totally faded away.
I am too tired to think...
** **
Soulless Newest Opening Scene
INT her living room, evening
The Lady is typing intently. We get a view over her shoulder. She is writing a movie script about some doll.
The last scene is the most important one. It shows the lady is close to losing it, too much horror research, too much time spent thinking of it, breathing it. She is afraid she will come to like it if she relaxes even a moment. Her neck muscles are sore and scream in protest but she continues typing the ending dialog.
The camera pans to a package on her desk. It is the doll she got, the box taped all over, like half a roll of tape to seal it when only 2 would do. The return label says "sorry, no returns!" the address label is blank, ready for whoever is unlucky enough to get the doll. She knows she wrote a great script and the doll will be wanted by someone (foolish)...
fade to black
** **
I was vaguely aware of events, of some lady buying me for her sister. Her sister was an emerging filmmaker and was doing a werewolf one. This lady thought I would make a better movie. How weird!
The first lady had a strange sort of feel but this one! Wow, it is like hidden Power. I am not even sure she knows she has it or not. That will make it easier to steal! I would steal her body but she is so old! But wow, Power! She stuck me in the coat closet with barely a glance after her sister left. It makes it hard to get close to her.
She can feel me and her house seems to be protected by unseen forces that sort of scare me. But, I mean, only because I cannot seen them! I am not a coward! I once felt her so scared and tried to get close to her then. Mistake, such searing pain! When she scares herself I can almost get close. But that sudden light burns! I will bide my time!
I felt her deep asleep. It was like she was dreaming of me and sort of bringing me into her bedroom. I decided it was the perfect time since she would think it was part of her dream.
She sat up though!
Somehow she sensed me! But even more then that, she saw me! I could see myself through her eyes. I was a black shadow in the dark room. I thought she would not be able to see me in the dark but she did! I felt terrified! Like getting bitch-slapped hard! I flew back into my body.
But... I saw myself for a second. A dark, creepy shape! I have no soul!!!!!!!!!!
Is this true? Do I have no soul? What does that mean??!! I do not understand anything anymore. I just know I have to survive to Halloween. By then I should have my strength back!
I am trying to be subtle, but somehow she senses me and I cannot get close. But I know she can hear me "whisper"...
I am trying to convince her to give me to someone weak, someone she does not like much...
Wednesday, March 23, 2016
Documentaries, Take Two
Documentaries, Take Two
I have several planned, 3 of the 4 involve actually getting to Attu! The Fourth is more a retrospective-ish one with interviews of Unangan.
My main one is mostly interviews with Unangan, young and old, then do the short film type thing of getting to Attu and have the people we interview watch it and ask some of the questions again... It is much more compelling then I am saying here but I dont want to post it more fully :p this is one that is important to me so I want to protect it :p
It is also where the idea of buying the boat comes from, I imagine us getting there and setting up a sort of base camp where we can come and go as we please. To save money in the long run we buy our own boat and become independent! I found the coolest "ecopods" to live in:
Ecocapsule ~sustainable living
2 pics from their site that show how pretty it is! I think it would be like $90,000 for a "first edition" plus probably a zillion dollars shipping (unless I buy the boat in Asia/Russia and load them there and go straight to Attu :p ) but a group of 30 would be cool! I imagine 5 would be just me and my daughters :p then some others who want to try living there and see what it is actually like. Would be awesome! Do you know someone mega rich and philanthropic? mention this to them :p Or buy me one and I can "practice" living in them :p throw it in me back yard and dream!
Oh man, I dream of getting there so badly! I was raised in Anchorage, "the big city" so am not sure how I would adapt. I mean the thought of no internet for a few days really bummed me out :p hehe but I think it was a spy station so probably has excellent reception!!
In a good mood, I hope you are too! I think learning to stay positive really helps when you do feel frustrated at things! It is too easy to get uninspired, even more then to get inspired at times... What we need to do is figure out what brings us back to a productive mood. Lol, right now my mind is stuck picturing living in the Ecocapsule in my back yard and blogging about it :p How cool would that be? I do like the "tiny home" movement, reduce our impact on the earth! Lol, but then would call this desk here "me office" and when bored in tiny space say "gotta go to work" :p
I noticed I am starting to do the "pirate speak" on here, yikes! I love pirates! So mistakenly feel that saying "me" instead of "my" will miraculously turn me into the Dread Pirate Searean
Pic from Deviant Art: Dread Pirate Cat
lol, that is not quite Searean but tough like she sees herself in her mind... and the purple hair!! :p
hehe, without her purple hair, I think she found a cool wig in the game so was wearing that to disguise herself...
Yes, vivid imagination, why it is so fun and so want to make films! Share my vision with the world!
Wow, got sidetracked agian! ahh well, hope you enjoyed!
hugs,
~Sea
I have several planned, 3 of the 4 involve actually getting to Attu! The Fourth is more a retrospective-ish one with interviews of Unangan.
My main one is mostly interviews with Unangan, young and old, then do the short film type thing of getting to Attu and have the people we interview watch it and ask some of the questions again... It is much more compelling then I am saying here but I dont want to post it more fully :p this is one that is important to me so I want to protect it :p
It is also where the idea of buying the boat comes from, I imagine us getting there and setting up a sort of base camp where we can come and go as we please. To save money in the long run we buy our own boat and become independent! I found the coolest "ecopods" to live in:
Ecocapsule ~sustainable living
Oh man, I dream of getting there so badly! I was raised in Anchorage, "the big city" so am not sure how I would adapt. I mean the thought of no internet for a few days really bummed me out :p hehe but I think it was a spy station so probably has excellent reception!!
In a good mood, I hope you are too! I think learning to stay positive really helps when you do feel frustrated at things! It is too easy to get uninspired, even more then to get inspired at times... What we need to do is figure out what brings us back to a productive mood. Lol, right now my mind is stuck picturing living in the Ecocapsule in my back yard and blogging about it :p How cool would that be? I do like the "tiny home" movement, reduce our impact on the earth! Lol, but then would call this desk here "me office" and when bored in tiny space say "gotta go to work" :p
I noticed I am starting to do the "pirate speak" on here, yikes! I love pirates! So mistakenly feel that saying "me" instead of "my" will miraculously turn me into the Dread Pirate Searean
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| DreadPirateCat |
Pic from Deviant Art: Dread Pirate Cat
lol, that is not quite Searean but tough like she sees herself in her mind... and the purple hair!! :p
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| When you see me coming | you are either very lucky... or dead... |
Yes, vivid imagination, why it is so fun and so want to make films! Share my vision with the world!
Wow, got sidetracked agian! ahh well, hope you enjoyed!
hugs,
~Sea
Inspiration
Inspiration
My mood is so good right now! We called to find out what happens if we go over the internet usage and lucky we did! They put us on the new plan since we were still on the old one and instead of having to carefully monitor the usage over this next week, we can breathe (and browse!) hehe
For my low budget werewolf story, I am planning it so it is "do-able" as soon as I get my upgraded equipment. I can picture awesome scenes but then need to remember that our fx skills are not that good yet. So rethink a scene over and over until I can picture it still awesome but what I can actually do today. But I think once we get it shot that we can crowdfund to get better cgi and someone to help us do it too! But to be able to make the film I need to think of it as what I can do today.
I kind of really like this idea, making it "low budget". I think it is such a good thing I did not get my original funding since I learned a lot writing this script! While I can picture awesome scenes I have to set them aside for a sequel or something when I have more resources! But it makes me really think about a scene, I mean really think about it from every angle. Being a small indie company we will need to learn it all since we will most likely be doing it all ourselves...
Lighting, will I be able to light it so it looks good? I read it is one of the key things that separates "amateur" and "cinema" films is how good it is lit. I kind of really love "lighting". have you ever watched the tutorials on lighting a scene? I find it fascinating and fun to watch. How amazing is it that just by adding a white bounce board or a black board it can totally change the mood! I wont post all of the cool ones I found right here but may do a post about it with links to the ones I really liked if there is interest. And diffusion by adding a sheer white sheet? I just find it so interesting and can not wait to get my equipment and experiment!
Audio, I also read that viewers will excuse bad images because they will tell themselves something like "I guess they wanted it to look like that..." but if the audio is bad they will not watch. The audio on my (very cheap) handycam is so bad! But it was more to give me the feel of being a filmmaker then to actually film (hehe, can say that now, but when I was buying it I thought i would make a million short films by now :p ) But listening to it, yikes! I really hate it when movies have bad audio, you know, where the special effects sound shake the house while their dialog is whispered almost! Drives me insane, especially if they do not provide subtitles to help out!
For the actually filming itself, wow, could go on and on for days about it! I really do find it all interesting! From planning the shot to actually filming, it is interesting to me! I really wish I had gotten the courage to try this ages ago! I hope to make sure our youth can get the chance to dream, study and film! We chose to live in "isolation" and live a rich spiritual life and storytelling is part of our blood! It can not be erased in one or two generations! :p
I was watching this video and felt so inspired:
It is why I so want that camera. Not that all my films are shot in darkness, lol, but that it can capture what I need it to! My "trilogy of Terror" was inspired by what was popular on tv: serial killers (Hannibal), zombies (The Walking Dead) and supernatural thrillers (Supernatural).
It was interesting to me the thing that I ran into when first talking with some other Unangax was that they were freaked out by the "horror" thing. I guess they thought I would be all gore and porn like the modern tv shows seem to be. I assured them I do not like gore myself so, no, only what is necessary for the films will be added. And definitely not porn! So once that was explained some interest grew! I know once I actually get it all set up the interest will grow, especially after they see one!
"Sci Fi" version of my culture is what I am calling my theme Bride of Sorrows. It is my culture "pre contact". It is funny though since my mind is really focusing on the werewolf one. Hard to get excited about my BOS at the moment! too excited about S'happens and how it is turning out! I am trying very hard to not just "crank out" a script, but trying my best to make sure the scene is awesome before I type it out. I think when reading the script I should probably add in more descriptions but since i know I am filming it (like my BOS) that I know what I want :p
I am also so excited, finally heard back form the Unangax dancers!!! woot!! so excited! Think first one is tonight! cant wait! so want to get involved and learn the culture!!
I hope you find something that inspires you and go for it with all you have!!
hugs,
~Sea
My mood is so good right now! We called to find out what happens if we go over the internet usage and lucky we did! They put us on the new plan since we were still on the old one and instead of having to carefully monitor the usage over this next week, we can breathe (and browse!) hehe
For my low budget werewolf story, I am planning it so it is "do-able" as soon as I get my upgraded equipment. I can picture awesome scenes but then need to remember that our fx skills are not that good yet. So rethink a scene over and over until I can picture it still awesome but what I can actually do today. But I think once we get it shot that we can crowdfund to get better cgi and someone to help us do it too! But to be able to make the film I need to think of it as what I can do today.
I kind of really like this idea, making it "low budget". I think it is such a good thing I did not get my original funding since I learned a lot writing this script! While I can picture awesome scenes I have to set them aside for a sequel or something when I have more resources! But it makes me really think about a scene, I mean really think about it from every angle. Being a small indie company we will need to learn it all since we will most likely be doing it all ourselves...
Lighting, will I be able to light it so it looks good? I read it is one of the key things that separates "amateur" and "cinema" films is how good it is lit. I kind of really love "lighting". have you ever watched the tutorials on lighting a scene? I find it fascinating and fun to watch. How amazing is it that just by adding a white bounce board or a black board it can totally change the mood! I wont post all of the cool ones I found right here but may do a post about it with links to the ones I really liked if there is interest. And diffusion by adding a sheer white sheet? I just find it so interesting and can not wait to get my equipment and experiment!
Audio, I also read that viewers will excuse bad images because they will tell themselves something like "I guess they wanted it to look like that..." but if the audio is bad they will not watch. The audio on my (very cheap) handycam is so bad! But it was more to give me the feel of being a filmmaker then to actually film (hehe, can say that now, but when I was buying it I thought i would make a million short films by now :p ) But listening to it, yikes! I really hate it when movies have bad audio, you know, where the special effects sound shake the house while their dialog is whispered almost! Drives me insane, especially if they do not provide subtitles to help out!
For the actually filming itself, wow, could go on and on for days about it! I really do find it all interesting! From planning the shot to actually filming, it is interesting to me! I really wish I had gotten the courage to try this ages ago! I hope to make sure our youth can get the chance to dream, study and film! We chose to live in "isolation" and live a rich spiritual life and storytelling is part of our blood! It can not be erased in one or two generations! :p
I was watching this video and felt so inspired:
It is why I so want that camera. Not that all my films are shot in darkness, lol, but that it can capture what I need it to! My "trilogy of Terror" was inspired by what was popular on tv: serial killers (Hannibal), zombies (The Walking Dead) and supernatural thrillers (Supernatural).
It was interesting to me the thing that I ran into when first talking with some other Unangax was that they were freaked out by the "horror" thing. I guess they thought I would be all gore and porn like the modern tv shows seem to be. I assured them I do not like gore myself so, no, only what is necessary for the films will be added. And definitely not porn! So once that was explained some interest grew! I know once I actually get it all set up the interest will grow, especially after they see one!
"Sci Fi" version of my culture is what I am calling my theme Bride of Sorrows. It is my culture "pre contact". It is funny though since my mind is really focusing on the werewolf one. Hard to get excited about my BOS at the moment! too excited about S'happens and how it is turning out! I am trying very hard to not just "crank out" a script, but trying my best to make sure the scene is awesome before I type it out. I think when reading the script I should probably add in more descriptions but since i know I am filming it (like my BOS) that I know what I want :p
I am also so excited, finally heard back form the Unangax dancers!!! woot!! so excited! Think first one is tonight! cant wait! so want to get involved and learn the culture!!
I hope you find something that inspires you and go for it with all you have!!
hugs,
~Sea
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